#30DayMusicChallenge Day 1: A Song You Like With A Color In The Title

Social media is a beast. No, seriously; apps like Twitter, Snapchat, Instagram and many others, dictate what’s hot and what’s not on damn near a 10-second rotation. This cluster-fuck of a lexicon unfortunately includes the music business, and perhaps most notoriously, Hip-Hop. That’s why when this 30-Day-Music-Challenge picture came up, I initially scoffed at it.

“Shiiiiiiiiiiiiit, the first one says, ‘Name a song with a color in the title,’ let’s take a shot for every time somebody tweets, “Purple Swag!”

*Update, I’m currently in the hospital for alcohol poisoning.*

All jokes aside, regardless of what #SwagTwitter does with their choices on this list, the potential for finding hidden gems is unlimited if you’re following the right people. Which is why, I decided to enter the 30-day-challenge, with a twist. Everyday, for 30 days, I will publish a piece on the song that I have chosen for that specific day, and write about what that song means to ME. Today, ironically, the topic is, “Name a song with a color in the title,” so without further a do, let’s get started.

December 23rd, 2012 was a day that forever changed the course of Hip-Hop. On that day, the genre lost one of it’s brightest up and coming stars, Capital Steez, to an apparent suicide. It was reported, though not widely, that the 19-year-old had jumped from the top floor of the Cinematic office buildings, which was supported by Steez’s chilling last tweet, “The End.”

Since that day; countless think pieces, articles, YouTube documentaries and more have tried to accurately project what the Brooklyn natives impact would’ve been on the genre. There’s also been a plethora of conspiracy theories and internet discussions that have claimed that maybe, just maybe — there was some foul play involved.

Despite all of that, it’s obvious that Steelo was mentally haunted, by whatever demons had caught up to him at this point in his young life. One song that proves this is “Black Petunia.”

Throughout this track, Steez is very vocal about his shortcomings, not only as a man but as a son, lover and to a certain extent, emcee. Two examples of this are lyrics that occur throughout the first verse:

“I’m trapped in my reality/ When I look in the mirror, there’s a bastard staring back at me/ The last chance of happiness for my family/ Cause momma’s getting older and it’s bringing out the man in me,”

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“Fuck being emotional, I’d rather braggadocio/ Drown in my emotions till I overflow with doper quotes/ So take a hit of this and pass it off to so and so.

The first set of lyrics obviously represents a tormented soul who is coming to the realization that life isn’t what his 12-year-old mind had once thought it would be, buoyed by an inner frustration at potentially disappointing his mother.

The second set, highlights the “I don’t give a fuck, let’s just smoke it away” attitude that is key to suppression and ultimately, a recurring cycle of depression. It also showcases the fickle mind of a 19-year-old creative. The beginning of the verse bears Steez at his most emotionally vulnerable state, and by the end of the verse; he makes it a point to say, “fuck being emotional,” which makes the song sound more like a teenager having a conversation with himself in the mirror as opposed to the traditional Hip-Hop track. Lucky for me, that conversation that he happened to put on wax; saved my life and I’m sure many others.

So for that, thank you Capital Steez — may your soul be forever infinite.